I'm so bummed out

I hate myself today.. and last night.. It was Katrina Delgado's boitday celebration last night Saturday (10-09-10), and unfortunately I wasn't able to come because I was broke. I had money but not enough for a cab.. but Kat said she'll pay for my cab. so I asked my mom if I can go to Kat's party and another UNFORTUNATELY she started to be a like a priest .. another SERMON my gosh.. so I decided to sneak out instead so I waited for my mom to sleep so I can go to Kat's party.. and ANOTHER UNFORTUNATELY I fell asleep.. good heavens.  I woke up around 4 am and remembered I was supposed to go to Kat's party.. my goodness. I really wanted to go.. I was actually dressed up and ready to go. uggggggghhh.. I'm such a lousy bestfriend and I would understand Kat if she's mad at me right now.. I can't think of anything to make it up to her. Last night was really important for her.She wanted to make "salubong" her boitday , which is today (10-10-10) hay.. I'm so sad. :(